I got this quote from "Odyssey of a Modern Jew", a book I'm absolutely in love with because the author reminds me so much of myself, it's as if his writings resonate within my soul...

"So many questions that torment me - questions that require sharp commitment in a world that is ambiguous - are decided for most other men by life itself, so that they have no choice but to follow and make the best of it. It seems to be my lot to chase phantoms, and I pray - if I can use that word - they lead somewhere, in time."

Some very smart person once said that the life unexamined is not worth living. But it seems that much of what we do in life, is dictated to us by life itself. What can we do in life, what do we want out of it? Most of the time we surrender control to our world, to circumstances, if you are religious, to God.

I fear work, I fear selling my soul to my workplace, to the routine of it. There is so much that constrains us - why do I have to sleep now, at 3am? Why can I not engage in activity? Why do my activities need to be constrained to the cycle of the day, and of the week? Why does 8am mean breakfast, 1pm mean tutorial, and 6pm mean prayer in catholic church? Can not the timings work in a totally different way? Why must I go to church on weekends? Why must we conform to the traditional norms of dating and marriage? Can I not fashion my own lifestyle, independently? What does it mean, to create one's own life, independently from society? What would that life look like?

And maybe that's why people follow social norms. Because a life without them would take too much energy to figure out, and people are afraid to take the risk. Even if this life we know fails us, we are afraid to try anything new - because this is all we know. Circumstances dictate our lives.

But we have one life, what is there to lose? You come here with nothing, you go back to nothing. What do you lose? Nothing!

Perhaps this is the spirit of Carpe Diem.

But does youthful idealism get buried under the pressures, demands, expectations, experiences of day-to-day living and society?

Or does the radical freedom that each of us essentially has bring us dread instead?This is what Existentialism suggests. To try to suppress our feelings of anxiety and dread, we confine ourselves within everyday experience, Sartre asserts, thereby relinquishing our freedom and acquiescing to being possessed in one form or another.

Does everything need to be destroyed, for something new and better to be built up?

This is the spirit of Anarchy, of Communism.

Anarchy and Communism - the political and social ideas of some of the world's most beautiful idealists.

As Queen sang - I Want to Break Free.